"Now I am living"

I wake up each morning
I take a deep breath
I sit there and listen
To thoughts in my head. 

I count all the numbers
I refuse the food
A constant behaviour
That controls my mood.

I hear all my loved ones
Keep asking me “why?”
Still I sit there in silence
Tears flow from my eyes.

'Till one day it happens
Slowly but sure
I pluck up the courage
And open the door. 

At first I am scared
Confused and afraid
But something tells me
That I'll be okay.

Before I was sitting
Trying just to survive
But now I am living
Now I'm alive.

Contributed by Lauren